everything will be ok.

I was sitting at the table and it hit me. All of the sudden, out of the blue, I just wanted to cry. I wanted to break down right then and there for half of the school to see. I finally had a chance to stop and breathe and it all caught up with me. The lack of sleep, the overwhelming realization of everything I had to do, the running around from one place to another with no end in sight. I felt like I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t want to do it anymore. I wanted to run and hide and sleep until it was all over. I felt like a complete and utter failure. Because in all honesty it’s my own doing, this breakdown. I brought it upon myself with my procrastination and lack of discipline. So really, I have no room to complain and cry. But I wanted to so badly.

But it’s a good thing, this life that I live. Stress and breakdowns included. Because God is good. And it’s by him and through him that I can do all things. Even in the midst of all of the stress and worry that life brings, He is good. He is in control. He is faithful. He is love. And I cannot lose sight of that.

So just when I feel like I can’t take any more I just have to remind myself that it’s all going to be ok. That’s what I need to remember. It’s all ok. Life is good. God is great. And everything will be ok.