some thoughts.

{a sunrise from outside of my window.}

Lately I've been bombarded with a lot of different thoughts. They came at the end of a hard night, and they followed me for many hard nights after. 

I was never promised an easy life, and in comparison my life is much easier than most. But lately I've just been so completely drained and exhausted spiritually. I will be the first to admit that I struggle with a lot of things, and I sin just as much if not more than the next person. So far be it from me to point fingers. 

That being said, where are the people who are truly following Christ? Where are the people who are earnestly trying to repent-- who are getting accountability, who are going to a pastor and/or elder if need be, who truly desire to be still and know God. And let me never forget that I don't do all of these thing perfectly, especially the last one. But I feel as if that is missing from our world today, from my generation specifically. Everyone I know has a million things to do and no time to do them. Have we so easily forgotten God's commandment to be still and know Him? To not worry about tomorrow? To trust solely in Him and lean not on our own understanding?  I see more and more people frequently forgetting these commandments, and it saddens me. 

That's not to deny peoples' struggles and sin. But should we not be working towards this, reminding others of this, and helping others in this? Are we not called to share one another's burdens and point them to Jesus? 

I guess all of this is just to say is that I want that for my generation, because lately I have seen less and less of it. It's frustrating, and I let it get to me. I shouldn't, but I do. And that is something I need to work on. But if anything I think it is frustration stemming from sadness-- from a burden to see my friends walk with Jesus, to know him and find peace in him. I want to see people pointing others to Christ and passionately pursuing him, because Jesus is the only thing that will ever matter. He should be our primary focus, our only love, our soul's desire.