someday husband,

I will try to bake something for you. I will go into the kitchen and pull out all of the ingredients for a recipe I find online. I will measure everything very carefully and get flour all over the counter. I will read and reread the directions, but something will go wrong as it usually does. something always goes wrong. because here's the thing. I can’t bake. or cook for that matter. not really. sometimes on rare occasions it will turn out decent and edible. but more often than not this is what happens. I will turn something that is supposed to be easy into a complete and utter disaster. it will be probably be messy and terrible and will not taste very good. 

and you will just smile and shake your head as most people do and that's okay. or maybe you will tease me mercilessly about it for months on end. that would be okay too. and I'll stand there and look helplessly at something that should be so simple and yet I managed to turn it into a complicated mess. I'll swear to never bake again and yet somehow, a few months later, you will find me in the kitchen doing it all over again. and you'll just smile and shake your head. 

so just know, someday husband, that I can't cook. or bake. people keep telling me that that will change and that it just takes practice but I don't believe them. but who knows? maybe you will be the one to change all of that. maybe my learning to cook will be one of our great adventures. I'm sure we will have many. but until then just know that this day will come.

p.s. if it's any consolation, I cleaned my room today.

maybe someday you will cook and I will clean. 

and together we'll be perfect for each other.