hello, dear blog

I've missed you these past few months. Which is entirely my fault given that you've been sitting here on my computer the entire time.

Forgive me?

P.S. lots of posts coming soon. as in tomorrow soon. goodnight!

someday husband,

I will try to bake something for you. I will go into the kitchen and pull out all of the ingredients for a recipe I find online. I will measure everything very carefully and get flour all over the counter. I will read and reread the directions, but something will go wrong as it usually does. something always goes wrong. because here's the thing. I can’t bake. or cook for that matter. not really. sometimes on rare occasions it will turn out decent and edible. but more often than not this is what happens. I will turn something that is supposed to be easy into a complete and utter disaster. it will be probably be messy and terrible and will not taste very good. 

and you will just smile and shake your head as most people do and that's okay. or maybe you will tease me mercilessly about it for months on end. that would be okay too. and I'll stand there and look helplessly at something that should be so simple and yet I managed to turn it into a complicated mess. I'll swear to never bake again and yet somehow, a few months later, you will find me in the kitchen doing it all over again. and you'll just smile and shake your head. 

so just know, someday husband, that I can't cook. or bake. people keep telling me that that will change and that it just takes practice but I don't believe them. but who knows? maybe you will be the one to change all of that. maybe my learning to cook will be one of our great adventures. I'm sure we will have many. but until then just know that this day will come.

p.s. if it's any consolation, I cleaned my room today.

maybe someday you will cook and I will clean. 

and together we'll be perfect for each other.

{another} apology and a reminder.

sorry for the absence (again). between work, school, student government, and the English honors society things have been pretty hectic around here. but as stressed and busy as I am, I love it. and yet at the same time I was reminded tonight that life is more than just existing. it is more than just going from one thing to the next and trying to survive (which is often my mentality). I was reminded that when I put things before the Lord (i.e. schoolwork) that it is idolatry (which I seem to do every. day.). and yes I realize and I know I need to work on this and on spending more time with Lord and being more disciplined about it. but more importantly I was reminded to rest in Jesus. that I need to rest in his love, his grace, his forgiveness, his work on the cross. and that is the best reminder of all.

I'm off to the mountains this weekend to go camping with six of my lovely friends. if you think about it, pray for us will you? and have a wonderful weekend.

resting in Him,

anna

a letter

dear caf,

you don't always have the best food. in fact most days it's really not that great (and that's coming from someone who is not a picky eater). and yes I complain about you sometimes and yes I wish you would offer healthier food (a girl can only eat so much turkey & chick peas for protein) but we've managed to make it work the past few years (although I'm still upset you didn't have ravioli for lunch today. that's what I live for on tuesdays).

but tonight you surprised me (as you tend to do every once in a while). thank you for the fall looking, fall tasting apple cinnamon jam square dessert things that were oh so delicious! you really blew me away. they were oh so yummy.

and I may or may not have taken three of them back to the room. they're THAT good.